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FUCK!

Recorded for posterity, an explanation of my silence over the past several days, as well as the current state of affairs regards my troubling times:

I have a friend from Russia named Lena. I've mentioned her here once or twice here before. Without being too dramatic about it, the story of Lena and my friendship is a story of brief moments. We never have enough time to just be together, especially when we're not both too tired to think. So I was understandably excited when Lena wrote to me on Thursday and said she'd be flying to the States in about a week, to work in the office for one of our other programs. She was going to be working for all of June, hanging out for all of July. In other words, she was going to be here for a while. Finally.

I was excited, but when I told Gail (my boss) she got upset. Lena, you see, had been here in June two years before and trouble had followed for the Camp program. We had missed connections, missing participants and silence from the other side of the world. This is something Gail didn't want to see repeated this year. So, Gail wrote to Lena's boss and said "if you can, send someone else." Lena's boss was quiet on the issue - he just didn't respond to us. Lena, however, said that if she wasn't able to come in June, she probably wasn't going to be able to come at all.

I spent the past few work days arguing, and most of the weekend moping about, the situation. I just didn't know what was going on, and if there's one thing I really hate it's not knowing what's going on. Today came and went and Gail did not change her mind, so Lena's not coming in June. FUCK! Now, let me be fair here. Gail is a great person, a good friend and a wonderful boss. I agree with her completely in that I don't want to see a repeat of the problems we had two years ago, either. I don't think we would have, due to some very changed circumstances, but I accept that I'm biased. It also wasn't my decision.

Will Lena be able to come at all? She says she will, but I don't know when or for how long. In email, Lena's about as vague as Zach. She's at least cute about it, but that makes it only marginally less infuriating. Will we have more than brief moments? Who knows. At least now I know for sure she's not coming in June, and even though that's bad news, my mood's brightened tremendously.

Comments (8)

Zach:

Man I dont know what you are talking about I am cute as .... well Hell.... I am sorry to hear about it ... keep us updated

gus:

well maybe next time?

Jason:

Ah, therein is the trouble, Gus: there may well be no next time. Remember, I'm most likely off to grad school in September, and if I am I'm not likely to be back on this coast at all for about 3 years. Oh, the drama...

vasha:

don't stress 2 much. us russian girls can be complicated. but maybe your looking too much into the situation. i can give u some advice if you like.

Jason:

Hey vasha, welcome to the blog. I'd say that, by definition, all girls can be complicated, no matter what country they're from. And it's very much a "me" thing to look too much into any situation. It's part of my charm. Or something...

vasha:

you're so self-obsessed, aren't you? you should get out more. we russian girls have all the fun.

gus:

i think jason travels enough

Jason:

Point, Gus. Though, a little sadly, my days of twice-a-winter trips to Europe are coming to an end. God, that sounded pretentious, didn't it?

Eh, well, I'll worry about getting out more once Lena gets here.

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