If it's not one thing, it's another. First heartbreak, and now I found out that the Museum Studies Certificate program has been suspended. As in "is no longer available to take/get."
I should, perhaps, take this opportunity to point out that when I was wrestling with the final decision of whether to go to UW or not, whether to incur the expense of another two years of schooling, whether to quit my stable and largely enjoyable job that had a positive impact (however small) on the world at large, it was the Museum Studies Certificate that pushed me over the edge. "Sure, there are a lot of down sides," I said to myself, "but at least at the end I'll be able to work in a museum, and that will be way cool." Not so, as it turns out.
I'm meeting with my advisor on Monday and find out if I have any real options. Can I, for example, transfer out to another program (The Museum Studies program, for preference, but the general International Studies program would serve me almost as well, just in a different area of interest)? In all likelihood, though, that will not be a choice. My choices will most likely come down to 1) Stay in school, spend a ton of money over the next two years, graduate with a Masters degree that will not help me at all in any career that I want to have or 2) Drop out of school, having wasted some four-thousand dollars or more in tuition and... do what? I don't have a job to go back to. I don't even have a room in my parents' house. And I don't want to talk about the wasted cost of shipping my car and things out here, only to ship them all back. But what else do I do? Stay here? Why? For how long? Doing what?
Have you ever had one of those months where you feel your life's just falling apart?
Comments (11)
I'm right there with ya, man. I know exactly how you feel.
Posted by Erik | October 30, 2004 10:13 AM
Posted on October 30, 2004 10:13
Yes, I can safely say that I have.
*hugs*
Posted by Bekah | October 30, 2004 11:27 AM
Posted on October 30, 2004 11:27
You mean there are weeks not like that?
Posted by Ben of the Azure Sea | October 30, 2004 6:51 PM
Posted on October 30, 2004 18:51
I can say that there are times when everything sucks, but I'm sure your situation is unique to anything that I've gone through.
Chat with the advisor, take it from there.
Posted by Marc | October 30, 2004 7:41 PM
Posted on October 30, 2004 19:41
Know you nothing of The Princess Bride? "Life is pain. Anyone who tells you otherwise is trying to sell something."
Life is falling apart times? Hmm...
Much of my youth...
Spring 92
92/93 School Year
Fall 93
October 96
December - May 2000
Fall 2001 - Fall 2002
Most, if not all of 2003.
Yeah, I'm not as well-balanced as I appear, which is certainly saying something.
It'll work out. It's better than NOT having gone if they DID have the program. Besides, you may still get into a useful one.
Posted by tired-despite-extra-hour-of-sleep Ogre | October 31, 2004 2:13 PM
Posted on October 31, 2004 14:13
It's nice to know that no matter how crappy my life is I can count on my friends to have had it worse.
No... wait. That's not nice at all.
Well, thanks for the well-wishes anyway. They're much appreciated.
Oh, and Ogre? Did you mention October 96 for the reason I think you mentioned October 96?
Posted by Jason | October 31, 2004 8:23 PM
Posted on October 31, 2004 20:23
I have no idea... you thinking October 95?
Posted by Ogre | November 1, 2004 5:38 AM
Posted on November 1, 2004 05:38
I might be. You know I'm bad with dates...
Posted by Jason | November 1, 2004 8:48 AM
Posted on November 1, 2004 08:48
Hey there, Jason. I just stumbled across this site when I was finished devouring everying on "Fables" and as I don't really know you (or think I don't anyway....) maybe I shouldn't be chiming in. However, your thoughts resonated with feelings I had only a few days ago. And it's times like these when maybe all you really need is a good long walk. Just grab a warm scarf and head out your front door. Stroll around and drink deep breaths of the world around you. Somewhere along the way you might just remember the important things you discovered while traveling and these little setbacks will shrink down to pebbles along the path.
In any case, the surest way to be happy is to start grinning like an idiot. It seeps in eventually.
*hugs*
Posted by Hana | November 1, 2004 12:51 PM
Posted on November 1, 2004 12:51
Hey Hana. No problem on chiming in. Walks, long and short, are great to clear the mind; I take one every time I get stuck on a writing project, pretty much. But, then, anything that shakes up the brain a little and puts it in a different frame of reference is good if you're stuck.
This is going to be one of those problems that I've got little control over, though, no matter how clear my mind is. Mostly, it's wait and see. Now I wait, tomorrow I see. One way or another, it should be resolved then. And with resolution (such as it is) comes clarity.
Thanks for the hug and the advice, though, and if by "devouring" the stuff on Fables you meant you liked it, well, thanks for the compliment, too. ^_^
Posted by Jason | November 1, 2004 4:35 PM
Posted on November 1, 2004 16:35
If you were referring to the situation with the robot and the nice Indian girl, well...that'd be sometime in 95. But yeah, I guess that did all kind of go down around October didn't it?
Posted by das ogre | November 2, 2004 10:42 AM
Posted on November 2, 2004 10:42